What a predicament

Licorice Jellybeans

2009-04-20T23:21:00.000-07:00

A comment within a blog, as posted on Julianism

2006-03-10T13:14:00.000-08:00

I am never good at leaving comments; when i do, they just sound ambiguous and somewhat cryptic.

I have always been able to get what I want, without having to work much for it. I guess, in the eyes of many, I am a spoilt brat. But there are those times where you get snubbed, dejected, isolated. My first reaction to that is to get numb, bitter, angry. However, (after a long long long time) I have learnt not to be disappointed (or rather, not to stay disappointed) if I can't get what I aimed for. I just have to keep on trying. A friend once told me that she is trying to remember the feeling of being attached with someone. Making the special someone the centre of her sole existance (or at least that's what my somewhat exaggerated point of view)

The thing is, which do you treasure more, the security behind the walls that you've built around yourself, or the adventure and thrill of seeking for that "soulmate". But then again, are you searching for an ideal, such that you are imposing your views on whatever that is imperfect? Or should it be the other way around, where you learn not to stay disappointed and start working on perfection rather than looking for one. After all happiness is not a destination, but a means of travel - you just have to keep on trying.

2006-03-09T18:29:00.000-08:00

But what am i suppose to think of it?

2006-03-07T17:10:00.000-08:00

Here are the lyrics

I get along without you very well
Of course, I do
Except when soft rains fall
And drip from leaves
Then I recall
The thrill of being sheltered in your arms
Of course, I do
But I get along without you very well

I've forgotten you just like I should
Of course, I have
Except to hear your name
Or someone's laugh that is the same
But I've forgotten you just like I should

What a guy
What a fool am I
To think my breaking heart
Could kid the moon
What's in store
Should I fall once more
No, it's best that I stick to my tune

I get along without you very well
Of course, I do
Except perhaps in Spring
But I should never think of Spring
For that would surely break my heart in two

What's in store
Should I fall once more
No, it's best that I stick to my tune

I get along without you very well
Of course, I do
Except perhaps in Spring
But I should never think of Spring
For that would surely break my heart in two

The police

2006-02-28T08:12:00.000-08:00

Where are you?

2006-02-04T21:30:00.000-08:00

Where are you? Where are you? Where are you?

Hmmm

2005-10-04T09:12:00.000-07:00

My wife she tells me, Hey i've som enews for me.
The doctor tells me.... I am way overdue

Wait till i tell her,
my girlfriend is too...

:|

Will the sneaky twin please stand up?

2005-09-26T03:48:00.000-07:00

I cannot believe it. The sneky twin has been going out with the girl for over a year now. WHOA. Congrats dude. Glad you found happiness.

2005-09-25T01:08:00.000-07:00

Was taking to these rushian folks. Sasha and Pasha, also known as Alex and Paul, even though Paul thinks that you should never ask someone for his "translated name" as a name cannot be translated. So you can't go to Pedro and call him Peter, even though it is inherently the same.

So, i was taking about how Russian girls are hot and they were swooning about Singaporean girls( Hah) and one thing led to another and soon we were on the topic of redlight districts and transvestites. So i suggested that if they were really bored they should try going to Geylang and Orchard Towers. And Pasha looks at me with this serious face. "Is it safe?"

I told him that our definition of trying was different. I was just refering to "try going there to have a look" not "try having a fuck" Nonetheless he was amused when i told him that there were Russian girls in Geylang.

This reminds me of the time I was conversing with one of my dad's business associates from Denmark, and he was asked me what interesting things there are to do in Singapore....at night. I suggested that he tried the Night Safari.

When i told my dad, he said i was dumb.

Dream On

2005-09-21T10:05:00.000-07:00

I was getting a foot massage from a girl when Jie En walked into my room. I told her that girls must be submissive. And i was trying to paint a picture of Man sitting in the midst of many women, being served like a king - with girls carrying grapes, a big palm branch etc etc.

Jie En looks at me and says : Dream on.

Let's do the world a favor

2005-09-20T18:13:00.000-07:00

let's do the world a favor. buy scanteak.

Paying in coins

2005-09-20T07:21:00.000-07:00

You get great satisfaction when you pay 63 dollars of gas...in coins

icecreamscoopsthesizeofyourboobs

2005-09-18T21:30:00.000-07:00

I wonder what goes on in the mind of a girl who thinks that the ice cream scoops are the size of her boobs. Go figure.

Buena Vista: Wrong type of attention

2005-09-18T08:59:00.000-07:00

Tried to look all manly. To be hones, I wanted some attention... and in the end the only I got was from a guy who was carrying a prada bag...and perhaps his male companion... Ah well...

Weird dream

2005-09-10T18:50:00.000-07:00

Had a weird dream. It was in words. Not graphics, just words. It said that I should not think my resources first, then decide what i can get. I should think about what I want to get first, before trying to plan to increase my resources. Does this make any sense to anyone?

2005-09-06T14:04:00.000-07:00

Tinaga was saying that if she were the president, then she would make everyday her birthday and declare everyday a holiday

julian: You will be voted out of office cause the country will lose it's productivity. Then you'll be in trouble cause everyone won't like you cause you make them lose their jobs and make them poor....*BORING*

Jie En: That's scary, you know. If it is your birthday everyday, then you'll become old very quickly. Can you imagine? It only takes 21days to become an adult.

Once again, I am silenced by the wisdom of an 11 year old.

After the Storm

2005-08-03T17:49:00.000-07:00

MOOD ANALYSIS TEST RESULTS
Your colors:

Much of the time you are preoccupied with things of an intensely exciting nature. You need stimulation and variation with all matters pertaining to your life. You want to be regarded as an exciting and interesting personality being able to charm and influence others. You use powerful strategies with predictable outcomes so as to avoid endangering your chances of success or undermining other people's confidence in you.
The way things are you are under considerable stress and you feel that there is little hope of matters righting themselves. Everyone about you seems to aggravate the problem even more. You feel that at this time you need to be alone and you are right - move back and give yourself a chance to breathe.
It is amazing that you yourself believe that old 'adage' that you are a misunderstood person - and you feel that because of this you are being left out in the cold. It is because of this lack of believed understanding that you feel the need to conform to society in general - but this situation leaves you 'cold' knowing that you are not appreciated for your true self. Any relationship that you are developing at this time does not seem to involve any true emotional commitment, you seem to be just playing along.
You pretend that you are a carefree individual and that nothing really bothers you - that you are so self-sufficient that whatever problems beset you they simply flow off you as water flows off a ducks back. You are experiencing considerable stress, trying to conceal yourself from the rest of the world. In actual fact - deep down, you are not at all happy. You feel lonely and you need someone with whom you can 'Let your hair down' and share your hopes, dreams and high standards. You are imposing unnecessary self restraint on yourself. You would like to demonstrate the unique quality of your character to all and sundry.
Whatever you have tried to do seems to have gone wrong and you are now quite convinced that there is little point of formulating new objectives and it is this belief that has resulted in the stress and anxiety. You would like to be able to communicate with other people who think as you do. At this time there seems to be no one on the horizon nor is there any prospect of meeting anyone in the immediate future. But it must be said that you are really a 'trier' and indications are that you will, as indeed you have in the past, 'bounce back'.

2005-08-01T06:02:00.000-07:00

MOOD ANALYSIS TEST RESULTS

Your colors:

Is it that you are working - or even playing - too hard? Because it would seem that you are experiencing a great deal of pent-up emotion at this time which could possibly take effect and lead to irrational behavior.

You are feeling very disillusioned at this time and you feel that you are being left out of things. You know - or you think you know - what you want, but you seem unable to exert the effort to achieve your objectives. As a consequence, you are feeling left out and neglected. You would like to be afforded greater security and fewer problems.

You feel that you deserve far more than is being attributed to you, but there is no-one to whom you can turn to for sympathy and understanding. Your pent-up emotions and inherent egocentricity make you quick to take offence, but as matters stand you realize that you will have to make the best of things as they are.

Your stress and anxiety are a result of an emotional disappointment. It could well be that the emotional relationship is no longer running smoothly and you have come to the end of your tether. On the one hand you would like to free yourself from this relationship altogether, yet on the other hand, you don't want to lose anything nor risk the uncertainty of throwing away something - something that's precious, something that could be the 'Real Thing'. Perhaps for the first time in your life you really don't know which way to go and it is these contradictory emotions that are causing you the untold stress. You are pretending to the world that you don't care but even this air of pretence is causing you much heartache.

At this time you don't particularly like yourself. Everything that you have tried to do seems to have gone wrong. This makes you feel that there is no point in trying to start again. Apart from being stressed and tense, you are angry with yourself and have un-admitted self-contempt. Your refusal to admit that you and you alone is the basic cause of your problems leads to you adopting a headstrong and defiant attitude. If you take stock of yourself, smile a little and let go, everything will turn out OK. Have you not heard of the cliché 'smile and the world smiles with you - cry and you cry alone!'?

Click here to take the test again now

In Search of the yong tau fu without bee hoon

2005-07-31T21:17:00.000-07:00

I looked around....but i could not find any healthy food. Ended up eating....vegetairan hokkien mee. What the hell, it cost me 60 cents.

First official entry

2005-07-27T20:07:00.000-07:00

A round of applause for these people.

Just cause everyone asks

2005-07-27T20:04:00.000-07:00

Well, before this, it was julianism. So why the switch? I guess i want to start anew. So here goes. Do post messages!